I spit, I sputter, I mangle the Spanish language.  I’m towards the end of my 2nd Spanish class grappling with feelings of failure. 

I’ve come a long ways, but I’m still stuck hacking my words into a sentence.  I don’t flow and flutter and float when I speak.  Somehow I start to combine words in my head and they come out in bits and pieces, not full sentences.  I guess I’m not much of a natural when it comes to languages…proven by my high school attempts to learn German and Sign Language.  Not that I don’t try. 

I can see the disappointment in my teachers face.  Though I hope it turns into resolve, to help me get there.  Because I understand a tremendous amount of the language.  I follow most conversations, though I often get lost if there are more then one or two individuals involved in the story.  Pronouns are pretty different in Spanish. 

I now know 5 tenses.  While the two past tenses are still difficult for me to conjugate (I mean c’mon – each person has a different form – you, me, he/she/youformal, they/youplural, we  – are all different) the future is pretty easy.  Reflexives…still figuring out the context for how to use em.

I just keep on keepin on.  Eventually I’ll fluidly speak when all the pieces fit and my brain relaxes.  One day Chema won’t correct me for every attempt I make…cause I’ll get it right.  ONE DAY…